I Think I'm An Idiot, The Sox Just Confirmed Why Again

Game after game after game, I feel like this is the one. The game we finally come through. The game we finally play cleanly and beat the Twins in their own home.

Every game I sit down and watch the game with the attitude of, we probably aren't going to win this game, but I don't see why we can't. I start to make up excuses in my mind of why this game will be different.

Buehrle's pitching, Baker stinks, the Twins lineup is weak, they are coming off a road trip, we have more speed than them, there's no reason why we can't, this thing has to end at some point.

And then as the game goes on, I usually get sucked in a little more. Most of the time (with the exception of Buehrle's last time out in Minnesota) the Sox are in the game, and many times leading going deep in the ballgame. I continue to make up more things in my head about why this is the one we will get.

Only 9 more outs, Linebrink, Dotel, then Jenks we've done it a million times, Buehrle can go 3 more innings, we will get to their bullpen, Mauer and Morneau aren't up again for a while.

All during this time out loud, on Twitter, on this blog, I make comments about how they will lose the game. but that's only because when I'm right I can say I told you so, and when I'm wrong, who cares, we won. But of course I'm never wrong when it comes to predicting us to lose to the Twins.

So I realized tonight that I must be an idiot. I must be stupid to sit here every single time and truly believe things will change. Truly believe this one is different. Truly believe that all of that is in the past. I have to be dumb, because if I'm not, why do I fall into the same trap every night. I'm like the challenged dog who doesn't realize the semantics behind an invisible fence. I know I have this collar on, I know I get shocked when I go over there, but hell there's a bone over there I want, no problem, I won't get shocked this time.

But just like that dog, I get shocked every time. I sit and shake my head and say how can this keep happening. How can I be so stupid to fall for this again. How in the world did we just lose that game. And yet I never learn.

And the sad part is, even after writing this post, I'm still going to do the exact same thing tomorrow. Colon vs. 4-10 Liriano, absolutely we will win. There's no way we can't.

You dumb, dumb boy.